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Modern Age
03:36
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my favorite memories were made on grandma's porch
I still look for it when I drive by, but it's not there anymore
when she passed on they tore it down
poured a ton of concrete in the ground
and put up a giant box with fake hardwood floors
'cause a house without four bedrooms, there isn't room enough
so build a new one twice as big and fill it up with stuff
'cause that's how it goes in today's modern age
as soon as it's made, it gets thrown away
we're operating at surge capacity
and I really miss the way it used to be
yeah, I really miss the way it used to be
and I still remember when our phones would get turned off
sometimes we'd just be unavailable after ten o'clock
and it wasn't any kind of crime
if every now and then you went offline
and big brother wasn't always listenin' when you would talk
now we check our phones and we check the news
eighty-five times a day
but I don't understand the draw;
there's nothing good there anyway
and that's how it goes in today's modern age
as soon as it's made, it gets thrown away
we're running on a drained battery
and I really miss the way it used to be
yeah, I really miss the way it used to be
and I really miss the way it used to be
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Make Up My Mind
04:24
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the sky is just as gray as when it started
and some things never change
but I'm not so brokenhearted I can't
rearrange these deck chairs one more time
and I woke up this morning
to find the world on fire
but the burn was controlled
and we all just went to work
like it was fine
like it was fine
'cause most of us are as happy as we wanna be
oh what a curse, that I can never decide
'cause I've considered every possibility
now if I could just make up my mind
tell everyone what I'm worth
punch above my weight
stop being afraid
listening for the crowd's roar
and wondering where it's at
take the bully straight down to the mat
'cause most of us are as happy as we wanna be
oh what a curse, that I can never decide
'cause I've considered every possibility
now if I could just make up my mind
and I woke up this morning
to find the world on fire
but the burn was controlled
and we all just went to work
like it was fine
like it was fine
'cause most of us are as happy as we wanna be
oh what a curse, that I can never decide
'cause I've considered every possibility
now if I could just make up my mind
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Crazymaker
03:45
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been chewing on this bitter pill for so long
but it's a jawbreaker
well all that I did wrong was let myself get strung along
it's too easy to make excuses for a faker
but I do you the favor, forget your bad behavior
we'll just chalk it up to my failure to see
you were a crazymaker, a bomb about to crater
I was looking for a savior, shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
and I'm the easy thing you reach for
when you need something to hold
yes I know what's good for me
I just pay no mind
and time and time again it gets so old
but I just do you the favor, forget your bad behavior
we'll just chalk it up to my failure to see
you were a crazymaker, a bomb about to crater
I was looking for a savior, shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
knowin' I've been taken for a ride but
takin' the ride anyway
what will happen when the bomb goes off?
will I find another reason to stay?
I do you the favor, forget your bad behavior
we'll just chalk it up to my failure to see
you were a crazymaker, a bomb about to crater
I was looking for a savior, shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
shame on me
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Valley of Ashes
03:53
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wasting all my time away
sitting by the door
waiting for the bell to ring
and pray for something more
the last time that you came to call
I tried to explain
the way you make me feel inside
is making me insane
reaching for the bottle
to fill the empty glass
nausea up inside of me
I wait for it to pass
you say you're coming back this way
you won't say when
you say you're coming back
but I'm afraid to ask
I'm afraid to ask
I'm afraid and I'm
watching headlights coming round the bend
and I'm waiting for you to come around again
and now come back
to the valley of ashes
to the valley of ashes
you love me like an object
addiction you won't quit
you swear to me you cannot stop
a sickness you can't fix
and you can't live forever
that's what I told myself
I climbed into the taxi and turned into someone else
turned into someone else
turned into someone that's
watching headlights coming round the bend
and I'm waiting for you to come around again
and come back
to the valley of ashes
to the valley of ashes
to the valley of ashes
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Hood Ornament
03:58
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born with a shirt on your back, born at third base
acting like you hit a triple
you've got a choir of yes men to sing all your praise
I'm stuck here playing second fiddle
if it were easy anyone would do it
I've worked so hard to get this far
but when it really gets right down to it
the old boys are standing guard
they cross their arms, the door is barred
they're standing guard
rolling stones uphill, tugging at my bootstraps
I take a break, they crash back down
trying to catch my breath, running on the treadmill
I'm never covering new ground
if it were easy anyone would do it
I've worked so hard to get this far
but when it really gets right down to it
the old boys are standing guard
they cross their arms in the schoolyard
they're standing guard
took my place up on the stage at the big event
all alone in a crowd of men
one of them looked me up and down and said --
I thought you were the hood ornament
if it were easy anyone would do it
but why's it gotta be so damn hard
and when it really gets right down to it
the old boys are standing guard
they cross their arms, the door is barred
the old boys are standing guard
the old boys are standing guard
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6. |
The Band Played On
03:09
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I buried myself in sunshine
I had to break through the clouds
so I played happy pop songs
and turned them up way too loud
and yes I got a bit sunburned
but it's a victory I earned
so what else are we gonna do?
we can't give up just 'cause the bastards won
I'm going down with the ship and they'll say
the band played on, the band played on
the band played on and the band played on
we should've sounded the alarm much sooner
'cause we held on too long
thinking things were gonna turn a corner
it looks like we were wrong
'cause we were seeing things for what they weren't
and that's a lesson we gotta learn
so what else are we gonna do?
we can't give up just 'cause the bastards won
I'm going down with the ship and they'll say
the band played on and the band played on
the band played on and the band played on
the band played on and the band played on
and I don't care if my back's against the wall
I'm coming at 'em like a cannonball
'cause what else are we gonna do?
we can't give up just 'cause the bastards won
I'm going down with the ship and they'll say
the band played on and the band played on
the band played on and the band played on
the band played on and the band played on
the band played on and the band played....
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7. |
Never Really Gone
03:11
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it feels good to push the bruise
and realize it's gone
it's just skin, there's nothing bleeding underneath
nothing damaged or torn
and I don't trust it yet but I stuck a toe out on the ice
maybe coming back didn't make it crack
it's clearer in hindsight
that I was never really gone
I carried it inside
always afraid to lose what I had
I came back to find that
I was never really gone
and I'll never forget the fortune
that brought me on this path
all the people I'd have never got to know
if I had let fear turn me back
and I left some signs along the road
I traveled from here to there
and back again and again and again
maybe I left home, but in the end
I was never really gone
I carried it inside
always afraid to lose what I had
I came back to find that
I was never really gone
never really gone
maybe I outgrew this place
or maybe I just thought I did
maybe I just needed to spread my wings
and fly around a little bit
'cause I was never really gone
I carried it inside
always afraid to lose what I had
I came back to find that
I was never really gone
never really gone
never really gone
The Weight of This
I don’t need you to be apologetic
I need you to be decisive and make the final cut
you're not saving anything by giving it a softer landing
no amount of pretty words can cover up
the constant lo-hum buzzing of regret inside my ears
it's got my balance all worn out and I’m tipping toward my fear
'cause we can't forget the things we've done
and we can't forgive who we've become
and the weight of this weighs a ton
and it crushes us ‘til we are numb
well maybe if I could have stuck the landing
there'd have been a better chance for you to understand me
but I’m unable to stop playing this in reverse
and all the mistakes caught on tape only make it worse
'cause we can't forget the things we've done
we can't forgive who we've become
and the weight of this weighs a ton
and it crushes us til we are numb
so now that we broke free and dodged the bullet
tell me why it’s so hard to just let go of it
and we can't forget the things we've done
we can't forgive who we've become
and the weight of this, it weighs a ton
and it crushes us...
and we can't forget the things we've done
we can't forgive who we've become
and the weight of this, it weighs a ton
and it crushes us til we are numb
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The Weight of This
03:25
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Yes
03:36
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I'm so tired of smiling and saying yes
of always being passed up
when I was clearly next
but I don't have the courage
to put my anger to the test
and I know that this ain't fair
I've heard it all my life
but that won't get me anywhere
so I keep turning on the knife
but I'm so tired of smiling and saying yes
of always being passed up
when I was clearly next
but I don't have the courage
to put my anger to the test
and I know that I don't play
all their silly games
I just do it my own way
but I'm angry all the same
I just take it all in stride
try not to quit the fight
I keep my fists balled by my side
and my lips pulled back real tight
but I'm so tired of smiling and saying yes
of always being passed up
when I was clearly next
but I don't have the courage
to put my anger to the test
and I'm so fucking tired
of saying yes
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10. |
The Try
03:36
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it's an uphill climb for our heroine
the sun is setting, the air is growing thin
and I can hear the cheers from all my friends
from the safety of base camp
but I don't know how everyone else carries on
well I don't know what they have figured out
and maybe it's not that hot, and we're not about to die
and we could save ourselves if we'd gather up the try
and avoidance of regret is what i'm working on
a life lived without it, or to just move on
to let it go and really, really mean it
to open up my hands and free them for receiving
but I don't know how everyone else carries on
well I don't know what they have figured out
well maybe it's not that hot, and we're not about to die
and we could save ourselves if we'd gather up the try
and the wound I carry tonight is heavy and it won't stop bleeding
no matter how tightly I wrap it up
it's always open, a constant needing
but I don't know how everyone else carries on
well I don't know what they have figured out
and baby it's getting hot, but I'm not afraid to die
and we could save ourselves if we'd gather up the try
oh we could save ourselves if we'd gather up the try
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11. |
Still Got Time
03:06
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well get a hold of yourself
'cause the world isn't ending yet --
what about all that rain they forecast that never came?
and get a hold of your fear
'cause it's the only thing that keeps you here
just take a deep breath, and go outside!
'cause you've still got time
as long as you're hearing this
you've still got time
to shake off your loneliness
you've still got time
to make your own happiness
you've still....
you've still....
'cause you can master your circumstance
you're the one in control
of drawing your every breath and choosing your starring role
so get a hold of your feet
and use them to carry you right into the street
and do something you'd never do!
'cause you've still got time
to patch up your brokenness
you've still got time
to fix what you haven't yet
you've still got time
as long as you're hearing this
you've still....
'cause you've still got time
to shake off your loneliness
you've still got time
to make your own happiness
you've still got time
as long as you're hearing this
you've still....
you've still got time!
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Vanessa Peters Austin, Texas
Indie singer/songwriter from Texas. Musician, Italophile, Virgo, coffee nerd, food lover, bossy-pants, big ol' softie.
I've released 10+ albums and played over 1000 shows in 11 countries. I'm not done yet.
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